Movies of the Adolescent Mind

Looking for the book that will change his life

like the character in “Night Train to Lisbon”
or finally earn his place in the world
like the young Montgomery Clift in “Red River”,
He wanders alone in his life's celluloid mind
as if strapped to  a movie chair forced to watch
the planet deconstruct the words meaning into two dimensional feelings.
Instead of grapes handed to him by the angel in “Date with an Angel”
he has popcorn and springy ancient seating.
Zoom into his bloodshot eyes looking to find a radiant soul sparkling
as if Madam Curie with microscope in black and white were there,
find instead emptiness of space and floating helplessly
like Clooney in “Gravity”.
Fast forward to where he is now lying almost in state,
aged beyond certainty of feeling,
beyond the chaos of care and discomfort —
he shifts his mind uncomfortably, pans around the room;
does he leap off a Berlin balcony, to become mortal,
like the man in love in “Wings of Desire”, or does he look over his shoulder,
into his pillow, and realize this is not a movie?